Pat Monahan (Her Eyes)

She's not afraid; she just likes to use her night light
When she gets paid, true religion gets it all
If they fit right.

She's a little bit manic, completely organic
Doesn't panic for the most part.

She's old enough to know, and young enough not to say no
To any chance that she gets for home plate tickets to see the Mets.
Like everybody, she's in over her head,
Dreads Feds, Grateful Dead, and doesn't take meds.

She's a Gemini Capricorn
Thinks all men are addicted to porn.
I don't agree with her half the time,
But, damn I'm glad she's mine.

Her eyes, that's where hope lies.
That's where blue skies
Meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that's where I go
When I go home.

She got the kinda strength that every man wishes he had.
She loved Michael Jackson up until he made Bad.

Tells me that she lives about a hundred lives,
Scares me to death when she thinks and drives,
Says cowboy hats make her look fat,
and I'm so glad she's mine.

Her eyes, that's where hope lies.
That's where blue skies
Meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that's where I go
When I go home.

She doesn't know the word 'impossible'
Don't care where I've been and doesn't care where we're goin' to.
She takes me as I am, and that ain't easy.
She's beautiful. So beautiful.

And sometimes I think she's truly crazy.
And I love it.

Her eyes, that's where hope lies.
That's where blue skies
Always meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that's where I go
When I go home.

Her eyes, that's where hope lies.
That's where blue skies
Always meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that's where I go
When I go home.

She's not afraid
she just likes to use her night light.

Love is an interesting thing... (August 11th, 2008)

Love is an interesting thing...

Love is unable to be described (In any language), touched, held, or seen... You can't reach out and take love, and while talked about by everyone, is truly found, by very few...

Love is by far the most sought after emotion by people... Searching for that sense of completion... A sense that I have found...

"We are each of us angels with only one wing,
and we can fly by embracing one another."
-Luciano de Crescenzo

One of my favorite quotes... I have always felt as if I was not a whole person... I a few months ago...

Love can also make you do strange things... Jealousy, rage, selfishness... All are emotions created and brought on by love... I have personally suffered from many things, generated by love, not all of them good...

I am not a violent person by nature... But I have been in public with Liz several times, and felt
insane, indescribable, irrational feelings of violence and jealousy... Merely by some man looking at her like she is some piece of meat... Like he could steal her, as if she is some item... Something that could be taken to parade around on their arm... I see these ideas, these concepts prance across their faces... knowing them to be false... That she is going to be with me always... that even if they were to make a move, she would shoot them down faster than they could write down their number... And yet I feel these urges to hurt them... To defend her, over a look... Irrational...

I have never felt this, not even remotely... I had been single for so long that I was beginning to think that maybe love and lust really did hold different company... Something I have never thought...

I am going to refer back to one of the first sentences in this rant, that love can't be described... If it were possible, I would have found the words... I have searched through dictionaries (literally)... That could describe an emotion on the level that I feel... The only one I could find was love...

With all the love in my heart,
Forever and always,
The angel with your other wing,

Brandon

P.S... I hope this brightens your day a bit...

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

- 3 Doors Down

I know I have really written anything in a while... Its not that I haven't been inspired or given new views on things... I just haven't been able to get the words to come out right... I can feel it though... Building up inside me... Like this big knot in my heart... I think tonight I will write... And I will finish quite a few little projects I have been working on, along with some new ones... Bare with me...

Death Cab For Cutie (Concert)

I got back from Cleveland last night at about 4:30... The concert was AMAZING... Liz and myself couldn't have been standing more than 20 feet from Ben Gibbard... They played all of their new stuff (Except for "The ice is getting thinner", which made me unhappy)... It was downpoaring when we got there... I even managed to soak Liz from the knees down in a big puddle!... We got into the pavilion and watched the opening band "Rouge Wave"... They were very good, and I fell in love with their drummer, quite possibly the most energetic musician I have ever seen... Death Cab was greeted by about 150 screaming indie kids, and all their parents bored in the bleachers... By half way through the concert Ben Gibbard was so soaked in sweat that every time he moved sweat flew in every direction... The commentary from Ben was good, odd, but good... By the end of the concert both of us were exhausted from dancing to much... But our energy was quickly renewed as we went on the hunt for the parking lot T-shirt guy... You know, the guy outside of every concert selling the leftover T-shirts for $1o... We were however unable to find him... I am fairly certain that Liz doesn't believe in the T-shirt guy, but he does exist... And I will prove it to her one day... Afterwards we got lost several times, during a most pleasant drive home... I dropped her off at home, and waied around for her mom to get back, and didn't leave till about 3:15...

The entire night was absolute magic... I only wish it wouldn't have had to end...

I am convinced that Ben Gibbard is an absolute lyrical genius... I know I already posted the video for these lyrics... But I am in love with the words... I highlighted my favorite lines...

How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me.
Its like a book elegantly bound but in a language that you can't read, just yet.

You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.
You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.

There are days when outside your window, I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective when we'll be lovers, lovers at last.

You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.
You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.

You reject my advances and desperate plea. I won't let you let me down so easily. So easily

You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.
You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.

I will possess your heart.
I will possess your heart.

Narrow Stairs

I finally downloaded and listened to the new Death Cab For Cutie Album... Other than listening to at Liz's I hadn't heard any of it... These are my two favorite songs off of the album...

The Ice Is Getting Thinner



I Will Possess Your Heart

All That I've Got

So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I...

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can't laugh, all I want, inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I...

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Unharmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I...

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah all that I've got..

Too old for faerie tales?

Do we ever truly grow,
Out of knights in shining armour?

Or do we ever leave behind,
The monsters in the closet?

When do we reach the age,
Where faeries just a figment?

Have we lost our hope,
That someone will come to save us?

Or do we lock ourselves in towers,
Hoping that no one cares to look?

Too scared to show ourselves,
Afraid to be seen for monsters that we are?

Too old for faerie tales?
...I truly think not...

Lost for words...

For once I am at a loss for words...
Feelings they can't quite describe...

A kiss, unexpected and passionate...
A touch, firm yet unsure...

Curled against my side...
I feel your heart begin to quicken...

Shuttered breaths pass our lips...
As my fingers touch your skin...

A gasp for air, as eyelids flutter...
Never before held so tight...

A smile spreads across your face...
The only thing within my sight...

Haiku's

A haiku is a very specific form of poetry, consisting of three lines. The first and last lines have 5 syllables, and the second has 7 syllables. I didn't write this poem, but I spent ten minutes laughing so hard I couldn't breathe. I thought I'd share...

Haiku's are very simple
Sometimes they don't make much sense
Refrigerator

Two hearts beat as one.

Though you're no longer
close enough to hear it.

Two gazes see one moon.

Farther apart than ever,
but closer than before.

One tears falls from my cheek.

'Cause you are no longer
close enough to catch it.

First Date...

I haven't been on a date in a REALLY long time. But every guy knows this feeling, but most won't admit it. The fear that your going to screww up, or that your going to make some really big mistake. And its not even just on a first date, its when we're around the women that we love, first date or 10th anniversary, we're always looking for that approval... These lyrics explain that feeling to a "T".

In the car, I just can't wait...
To pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
I'm just scared of what you think.
You make me nervous so I really can't eat

Let´s go... don't wait... this night's almost over
Honest... let´s make... this night last forever
Forever, and ever... let´s make this last forever
Forever, and ever... let´s make this last forever

When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that your capable of lies
I dreamt the thought of our very first kiss
A target that I'm probably gonna miss

Let´s go... don't wait... this night's almost over
Honest... let´s make... this night last forever
Forever, and ever... let´s make this last forever
Forever,and ever... let´s make this last forever
Let´s go... don't wait... this night's almost over
Honest... let´s make... this night last forever
Forever,and ever... let´s make this last forever
Forever,and ever... let´s make this last forever
Forever,and ever... let´s make this last forever
Forever,and ever... let´s make this last forever!

(I miss you, I miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)

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Here in your arms

I like,
Where we are,
When we drive,
In your car.
I like,
Where we are;
here.

Cause our lips,
Can touch,
And our cheeks,
Can brush.
Our lips,
Can touch;
here.

When you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
That there's no place else I could be but here in your arms.

I like,
Where you sleep,
When you sleep,
Next to me.
I like,
Where you sleep;
Here.

Our lips,
Can touch,
And our cheeks,
Can brush.
our lips,
Can touch;
here.

When you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
That there's no place else I could be but here in your arms.

Our lips,
Can touch...
Our lips,
Can touch;
here.

-pause-

When you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers "Hello, I’ve missed you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
That there's no place else I could be but here in your arms.


When you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers "Hello, I've missed you, I've missed you."
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
That there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Here in your arms
Here in your arms

since feeling is first

I have always held a deep love for e e cummings, this is his poem "since feeling is first". I find his poetry to be a gentle mix of weird and touching (not to mention his total disregard for the rules of grammar)... This is one of my two favorites, it kind of fits whats going on in my life right now... Kinda... I wrote some of my own to describe it, but I already lit on fire... You'll have that...

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a far better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
--the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for eachother: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

Cool Quote...

"Friendship isn't about who you've known the longest, but rather who came to your side, and never left"

-Anonymous

Of Lovers...

Of lovers eyes,
And of lovers lips.

Through our kiss,
Our passion slips.

Of lovers legs,
And of lovers hips.

My mind keeps racing,
My heartbeat skips.

Of lovers touch,
And of lovers skin.

A sensuous bond,
A warmth within.

Of lovers smile,
And of lovers hands.

Unable to fight,
With our hearts demands...

Mental Health Hotline

Hello and welcome to the mental health hotline...

-If you are obsessive compulsive please press one repeatedly
-If you are codependent please ask someone to push 2 for you
-If you have multiple personalities please press 3, 4, 5, 6
-If you are paranoid please push 7 and we will connect you to the mothership
-If you are schizophrenic please listen carefully and you will hear a small voice tell you which number to push
-If you are dyslexic please push 6969696969696969
-If you have low self-esteem please call back when somebody cares about your call
-If you have a short memory span please start this message over again

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and
It's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(You should know better)
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
(You should see why)
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
(You should know better)
I made a pilgrimage to save this human race
(You should see why)
Never comprehending a race that long gone by
(I'll stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(I'll stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
The future's open wide
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
I've seen some changes but it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
The future's open wide
hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you...

The Line...

Everyone is always talking about "The Line"... "Don't cross that line", "On the edge", "You crossed the line"... Exactly what is that line... And does it surround us? Is there a line of acceptance around everything that we do? I don't know whether or not I am constantly crossing that line, and if its a good thing or a bad thing. I would like to think that everybody likes somebody that is a bit out there, but what do I know...

I have been in a serious rut lately... I just can't seem to do anything right, and if I am doing it right, some part of me is convinced that I am doing it wrong. I find myself constantly preoccupied with things that shouldn't be on my mind, unable to focus on even the most menial of tasks... And I have had terrible writers block for almost a month now. I think might be why so much stuff seems to be welling up inside of me, I haven't been able to just vent out at a piece paper and then light it on fire. Though I did find out that kicking the heads off of snowmen can be quite enjoyable.

Its so weird around the house without Mario... He was kinda like my little brother, sleeping in the same room, always annoying the hell out of me, constantly trying to get in my way (Sarcasm), you know, all the things brothers re supposed to do... It just seems really empty without him around.

I kinda feel like I am flying a plane blindfolded... I have no idea where I am, what I am doing, or how to get to where I am trying to go...

This is not something that I wrote... But I have always loved this simple and sweet poem...

I ran up the door,
closed the stairs.

Said my pajamas,
and put on my prayers.

Turned off the bed,
and hopped into the light.

All because you kissed me goodnight