since feeling is first

I have always held a deep love for e e cummings, this is his poem "since feeling is first". I find his poetry to be a gentle mix of weird and touching (not to mention his total disregard for the rules of grammar)... This is one of my two favorites, it kind of fits whats going on in my life right now... Kinda... I wrote some of my own to describe it, but I already lit on fire... You'll have that...

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a far better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
--the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for eachother: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

Cool Quote...

"Friendship isn't about who you've known the longest, but rather who came to your side, and never left"

-Anonymous

Of Lovers...

Of lovers eyes,
And of lovers lips.

Through our kiss,
Our passion slips.

Of lovers legs,
And of lovers hips.

My mind keeps racing,
My heartbeat skips.

Of lovers touch,
And of lovers skin.

A sensuous bond,
A warmth within.

Of lovers smile,
And of lovers hands.

Unable to fight,
With our hearts demands...

Mental Health Hotline

Hello and welcome to the mental health hotline...

-If you are obsessive compulsive please press one repeatedly
-If you are codependent please ask someone to push 2 for you
-If you have multiple personalities please press 3, 4, 5, 6
-If you are paranoid please push 7 and we will connect you to the mothership
-If you are schizophrenic please listen carefully and you will hear a small voice tell you which number to push
-If you are dyslexic please push 6969696969696969
-If you have low self-esteem please call back when somebody cares about your call
-If you have a short memory span please start this message over again

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and
It's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(You should know better)
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
(You should see why)
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
(You should know better)
I made a pilgrimage to save this human race
(You should see why)
Never comprehending a race that long gone by
(I'll stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(I'll stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
The future's open wide
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
I've seen some changes but it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
The future's open wide
hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you...

The Line...

Everyone is always talking about "The Line"... "Don't cross that line", "On the edge", "You crossed the line"... Exactly what is that line... And does it surround us? Is there a line of acceptance around everything that we do? I don't know whether or not I am constantly crossing that line, and if its a good thing or a bad thing. I would like to think that everybody likes somebody that is a bit out there, but what do I know...

I have been in a serious rut lately... I just can't seem to do anything right, and if I am doing it right, some part of me is convinced that I am doing it wrong. I find myself constantly preoccupied with things that shouldn't be on my mind, unable to focus on even the most menial of tasks... And I have had terrible writers block for almost a month now. I think might be why so much stuff seems to be welling up inside of me, I haven't been able to just vent out at a piece paper and then light it on fire. Though I did find out that kicking the heads off of snowmen can be quite enjoyable.

Its so weird around the house without Mario... He was kinda like my little brother, sleeping in the same room, always annoying the hell out of me, constantly trying to get in my way (Sarcasm), you know, all the things brothers re supposed to do... It just seems really empty without him around.

I kinda feel like I am flying a plane blindfolded... I have no idea where I am, what I am doing, or how to get to where I am trying to go...